Speaking of eating, it's that time of year when we all, myself included, start thinking that next year will be the year to lose those pounds that we've been hanging on to for the last couple of years. No offense to those who do, I don't make New Year's resolutions. I learned that I can't keep them, so I'm better off not making them and sticking to little goals, such as, I'll eat healthier, try to walk a few days a week, etc... They are my goals all year long, every day of any year. Sometimes I hit, many times I miss. But I don't sweat it like I used to. I don't obsess over it like I used to. I want to be healthy and be around for my kids for many more years, but I won't let it consume me like it did pre-children. I mean, I had nothing else to think about then, now did I?
No, I don't make resolutions, but I do reflect on where I am at, and where I'd like to be. We are now at what I like to call the wonderful turning point. The twins will be 3 in February. For me, three is wonderful. My two oldest were transformed at three. Their communication improved dramatically, we got rid of the diapers, and things just got easier all around. With the twins, I'm hoping the same magic will occur. We already notice a change. We can now go out to dinner, the six of us, and I can actually finish my meal, without the need of popping 4 Tums during the course of the dinner. I mean, it was not pretty. But that's where we WERE at. Anel and Alia are doing very well in school and are maturing and physically growing at dramatic rates. (Pre-tweens have very noticeable growth spurts!?) They are role models for their little sisters and the twins couldn't love them more. Do they all get along wonderfully all the time? NO! But it's clear that they are connected in a way only sisters can be! And it's beautiful to watch!
Where would I like to be? The answer may shock you. But it's nowhere else but right here, right now. Is life perfect? NO. Do I wish some things were different? YES. But I have a beautiful family, an amazing extended family, healthy children, a roof over my head and food on the table. I have met Maslow's hierarchy of needs. This right now will never come again. So I am savoring this moment, learning how to breathe and let the unimportant things slide by me, and thinking that tomorrow might be a good day to take a 30 minute walk.
From our family to yours, have a wonderful Holiday!
